To me: the glass is half empty today

This might sound a little crazy to you, but I'm sad over a bird losing its life this morning on behalf of my living room window. This will all make sense at the end of this post.

Yes. A quail, I believe.

In my formal living room, there is a big window and over the big window is a clear long horizontal window. I was on the phone when I heard a big thump and realized it might be a bird. The bird must've thought there was no window (the glass isn't that clean) and thought it could fly in. I went outside and it was twitching like it was dying. This is where you'll think I'm either kind or just plain nuts: I petted its head saying "I'm sorry pretty bird, I'm sorry." It opened its beak and took its last breath and then the tummy went down. I've never witnessed an animal taking its last breath like that. The interesting thing to me was that there was another bird in the background that I could hear making a noise....almost like it knew his little friend has passed away.
I think if the neighbors were watching me out there they'd be laughing in a belly roll. It's okay. I never cared for them anyway.

The other thing is I'm afraid to pick it up. Not sure why. So I have to wait till my husband comes home to remove it. I didn't want to call him up now and tell him about the bird. I could just imagine the dead silence on the phone and him thinking "my wife has officially lost it."

Not because he wouldn't care, but because he's got much bigger worries going on. He happens to be in the hospital waiting for his friend to come out of an induced coma. Induced because doctors think if he wakes up and realizes his arm is not functioning, he might go into cardiac arrest. So we're all waiting to see if he can pull out of it.

Good friend Paul got into a car accident 3 nights ago. No one else was hurt. I just got a text from my husband and said it doesn't look good. Mike (my husband) and Paul have the same circle of friends. They play pool together, they work in the same field and they're all funny and immature. So you can imagine how upset and worried everyone is. We found out he had been drinking too. Yes. Sad. Don't drink and drive people. Can't reiterate that enough until it hits close to home.

Your prayers would be appreciated. He is 36 and has 2 young boys.

So this is why I was emotional over that bird taking its last breath in front of me. Almost to say that there is something to come next.

*Update: Paul just took his last breath too.